Wednesday, 4 November 2015

Dear Legs!


"You must find the place inside yourself where nothing is impossible"
- Deepak Chopra
Dear Legs,

You've seen massive purple stretch marks, cellulite, screaming voices of disgust and worthlessness, scissors, blood and scars from a tortuous past, from battles that had everything to do with you and nothing at all. From a girl who stood in a mirror feeling physically sick at her reflection in which it was morphed and fucked up to the point she couldn't even tell you which way was up, she was sick, weak and dying... to a girl that can squat and deadlift her body weight and being in love and incredibly amazed and proud of her strength.

I felt ashamed and disgusted of you from an early age and at one point took photos of you trying to see what everyone else saw and being insanely terrified of what you would turn into if I was to survive. I may of found my love for your ability and strength early on in my fitness and transformation process but the love of when I saw you was slow and I still struggled with you often, you still morphed in a matter of seconds. I took a photo of you about a year ago and still I cried, I knew you and I had continuous tortuous battles that spanned more than a decade, yet again battles that had everything to do with you and nothing at all. I decided to stop looking at you and to trust the process, I continued to thrash you hard and ate well, I grew you and leaned you down. I focused on my journey of self love and your ability, strength, putting my pain into power and for the pure love of physical pain, enjoyment and health.

I decided to take a photo of you the other day and I felt proud and in disbelief, it was strange and beautiful to feel all kinds of love for you. I know you and I will still have our struggles but we've grown, we're growing and well you and I have made it through some pretty gnarly sh!t together, I'm proud of you and I love you for all that you can do and are and I look forward to growing you in many more ways. Dear legs of mine you aren't just legs you're warriors and a canvas of pain into power and strength!

With love
Rainbow :) xoxo

46 comments:

  1. Congratulations dear! This is beautifully written and you really are an incredibly strong person <3

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    1. Thank you so much Sara! <3 Have a gorgeous day lovely! <3

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  2. Holy cow Rainbow, so so so proud of you my strong, inspiring friend! I had a trainer tell me something once that always stuck with me. She said, "Push yourself until you feel like you can't push yourself anymore, and then push yourself further. That's when you find your strength." That always stuck with me. I feel like you inspire me to live that message! You are a living example of transformation and such an inspiration to others! You are one fierce girl and absolutely amazing! XO -Kim

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    1. Naww thank you so much you badass angel! <3 Naww I love that and I feel humbled that I've inspired you in that way Kim! <3 Right back at you, you beautiful babe! <3 <3 <3 xoxo

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  3. Wow I can see the difference looks amazing!
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    1. Thank you Kayla! <3 Have a magical day! <3

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  4. I. love. this. I have a love-hate relationship with my legs as well! Reading this gave me a little bit more confidence about them knowing someone might feel the same way! Thanks for sharing!!!
    xx
    Kenzie
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    1. Big hugs girl! <3 Thank you so much Kenzie! Sending love and positive vibes your way and always know you are freakin' incredible! <3 xoxo

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  5. This is so inspiring! You are so strong and beautiful! :)

    Mallory//Perhaps Bananas

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    1. Thank you so much Mallory and right back at you! <3

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  6. So beautifully written and very inspiring! :)

    Viva Epernay ❤

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    1. Thank you so much Sarah! Have a gorgeous day! <3

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  7. Very impressive! There's nothing I love more than working out. You look incredible! Laura www.shehearts.net x

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    1. Thank you so much Laura! Have a magical day! <3

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  8. Wow,such an amazing transformation! You are really inspiring and hope you can continue being so :)

    Prudence
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    1. Thank you so much Prudence! Have a gorgeous day girl! <3

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  9. I'l be honest and say that I'm still stuck at the stage of hating my legs that morphed in the mirror. Oh yes. And I've taken countless pictures of the cellulite and scars and have tried so hard to move on to no avail. This difference, Rainbow, is amazing. You're such an inspiration and this definitely has planted a seed of motivation in me. Thank you for your power and strength. <3

    May | THE MAYDEN | Bloglovin'

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    1. Big hugs May! <3 If you every need someone to talk to I'm always here! It does get better even though you might feel like it doesn't. Thank YOU May! Remember you are freakin' gorgeous inside and out! Sending love, hugs and positive vibes your way girl! <3 xoxo

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  10. So amazing dear! Congrats, I am glad you are happy now :)

    Florals&Smiles

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    1. Thank you so much! Have a beautiful day Kelsey and Kenecha! <3

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  11. Congrats Rain! your such an amazing person and very inspiring. Please continue to promote self love!

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    1. Thank you so much Analyn! Have a lovely day girl! <3

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  12. Ah, I truly admire you, Rainbow, you're inspiration to other people, because you was sick and as you noticed - dying, but you didn't give up. And your legs are proof for your strenght, because they also were as much weak as you was in that period, but now everything is just past, now you're stronger and better person. I wish you many beautiful days in your life, dear friend, because those bad ones now you have behind your back :)

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    1. Naww thank you so much Ivonne! <3 Right back at you, you beautiful babe! <3 Have a gorgeous day Ivonne! <3 xoxo

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  13. Wow! You actually made it. I know nothing is impossible if you work hard for it. You're so so great! Wishing I am as strong as you. :)


    Have a nice day!

    xoxo,
    SHAIRA
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    1. Naww thank you so much Shaira! Have a magical day! <3

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  14. You look amazing, Rainbow! :) Congrats on everything!!! Keeping inspiring us :) xo

    ~Lor @ cozycomfyhome.com

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    1. Thank you so much Lor! <3 Have a gorgeous day girl! <3 xoxo

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  15. Beautifully written! Congrats on being so healthy!!!!! MWAH XOXO
    Lauren-Blair
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    1. Naww thank you so much Lauren, you beautiful babe! Have a wonderful day and MWAH right back at you! <3 xoxo

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  16. Have a great evening, Rainbow :)

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  17. You're such an inspiration, congrats on all that you have achieved, and I'm sure there is much more to come XOXO.
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  18. You Rainbow, are a very, very impressive woman . I can not even express me awe , you are amazing and such an inspiration and should be exceptionally proud of yourself especially after how you have gone from an extreme of lack of self love which must have been extremely hard for you , to someone who helps other people create self love for themselves and who ,motivates me and many others to look after and appreciate myself :)

    Lots of love, Marianne xxx

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    1. Nawww thank you so much Marianne and right back at you girlfriend! <3 <3 <3 It's so humbling and beautiful to know that I inspire you and others. You are so incredible Marianne and it has been such an honour to meet someone who is also just as passionate about the positive life and sharing that, YOU inspire me with all that you do and please don't ever stop! I have so much love for you and what you do! <3 Have a magical day you beautiful babe! <3 xoxo

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  19. So so inspiring!! So proud of what you've overcome!! :)

    Pop over to my blog!

    Sarah
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    1. Naww thank you so much Sarah! Have a wicked lovely! <3

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  20. this is beautiful (as are you!!) it's so cool that you've come so far and have developed such a strong love for your body. i especially love that line "i decided to stop looking at you and to trust the process" seriously, you're amazing. congratulations and thanks for being so inspirational

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    1. Naww thank you so much Kuo and right back at you girl! <3 Thank YOU Kuo! You are amazing! <3 :)

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  21. A long time I was not here, sorry ... my dear, what have you done with your life is such a huge step, you're amazing, because you won, and won, because you loved her illness, I'm absolutely full of admiration for you! Today himself read your posts and looking for inspiration for myself, because I also have a problem that receives me everything. And I know that the cause is in the head, in the psyche ...
    It's great to see you healthy and happy, and this marvelous leg !!! Super darling, bravo <3

    kisses dear - you are amazing !!!

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    1. Naww thank you so very much! Sending love, hugs and positive vibes your way! YOU are amazing! <3

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  22. Wow, now that's an awesome transformation! I'm proud of you too!
    Your story is inspiring and I hope you continue to be stronger Rainbow ~ ♡

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  23. You're so inspirational!! I'm working on my legs as well. I have so much fat in them and I'm working my very hardest to reach my goals ^__^

    Linxnee-Beauty, Fashion, Lifestyle

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    1. Thank you so much Linnie! You go girl, be proud of the internal and external work! Have a beautiful day! <3

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