Wednesday, 6 July 2016

You Can Fall Back, So Try To Step Outside!

Someone once told me I could always go back if I wanted to in relation to my eating disorder and talking about recovery... it was true at any point I could just give up on the idea of recovery and fall back into the arms of my eating disorder. This conversation has helped me in many parts of my journey to keep pushing through the hard points, it gave me a sense of security and safety to know I had something to fall back on to if I went outside the lines and it didn't work.  

The times my mind has been filled with anxiety, intense urges to restrict, throw away food, cut and carry out OCD rituals and I've pushed through or "stepped outside the lines" I've always carried with me "I can always go back" it's been one of the things that has helped me in times of complete darkness, it's helped me to break brick walls that I thought were impossible. It's also helped me to have faith and well truthfully at times I've also had to fall backwards because it was all too much but that's okay because falling is part of the process.      

I hope "I can always go back" can help someone out there like it has done for me in times of darkness and/or to step outside the lines.

With magic from me to you
Rainbow :) xoxo