Monday, 4 September 2017

You Are Not Wrong For Being Who YOU Are...

One of the big reasons I took my blogging break was earlier this year the final straw in a long line of broken straws came to ahead in the job I was deeply unhappy in and was desperately trying to move on from... which wasn't happening for me either. The absolutely final straw was being given the heads up that in the near future the company was going to be changing their policy to no colourful hair.

Needless to say it hurt and it left me in what felt like an even worse position that I was put in prior to this happening which also wasn't a good position to be in. With that I handed in my resignation and had no job. This all triggered off my mental health issues even more and for many reasons.

It can be so easy to internalise such things when you get put into a situation like this and shame, blame and hurt yourself over it... and I did. It all got a bit much and I felt like I again was being punished for being who I was, that there was something wrong with me, that I was not good enough and worthless and why couldn't I just be myself and be accepted. I turned it inward.

Though in saying this I also internally knew this was and is about equality and discrimination which also hurt on so many levels. It wasn't and isn't just about me but how we as a society hurt people by having and creating cultures that aren't equal with making certain groups inferior and superior, that shames people for who they are and devalues diversity which all ultimately hurts/destroys people and contributes to mental illness. That is all not ok, it's fucked up and we need to continue to work and fight to unfuck it. It might of been just one company... though I have also come up against this at times in job interviews however it starts with one company, with one person to embrace equality, diversity and acceptance. I'm incredibly grateful in every way for those out there that are about the equality, diversity and acceptance life, it's essential for it to be the "norm".

If you experience or come up against anything like this you are not alone, keep fighting warriors, keep fighting for change and equality on all levels and most of all keep being yourselves... trust me darlings you are not wrong for being who you are.

With hope and love
Rainbow :) xoxo